catch up.

afternoon loves.

I feel like since the last time I blogged a lot has changed, and by a lot I mean maybe three things.

But, three things in my life these days means a lot.

let's be real: april & may sucked ass and I wasn't sad at all to see them go. In fact, if I hope to never experience what I experienced in those two months again in my lifetime.

However, because I am obviously I am a sweet individual my luck has started to change and the tides are turning in my favor.

So, let me share the joy.

1. i'm movin' out bitches.

that's right, i'm finally leaving mom & dad's. 

How pathetic does that make me sound? 

But, I don't regret moving back home and honestly, I don't think I would have survived my last quarter at school, family issues, and getting my heart smashed into 1000 pieces without my parents. I will forever be greatful for their support and letting me live in their basement and participating in movie nights with me even when they didn't want to.

With that being said, I introduce you to my gorgeous roommates.

i'm sure you recognize that lil hoodrat Alicia.

...and our second lil hoodrat, Katie.

I'm so excited to be living with these two! It will be a fantastic summer of: vodka pong {not to be confused with beer pong}, sun bathing, singing & dancing in the living room, and whatever other shenans we encounter.

Liver, I'm sorry. 

2. I GOT A NEW JOB.

I probably should have started out with this one first because it is VERY EXCITING NEWS!!! I was sought out by Saks Fifth Ave through LinkedIn and out of twenty some people they hired little ole' me. 

Karma, I'm starting to believe in you again.

Words can not describe to you how much this means to me. The job is the lead stylist position for women's contemporary which what I pretty much did at BCBG, but is full time with big girl status and everything. I still want to work my way up to corporate. But, us fashion gals know, you have to bust ass to get to the top and that is what I plan on doing. 

I start June 18th and am so ready, nervous, excited, and thrilled to start my new career path with Saks Fifth. I mean hello, it's frickin' SAKS FIFTH!

3. I'm happy.

I stopped and thought about that the other day, like actually really thought about it. When was the last time I could sit back and say I am 100% happy with every aspect in my life. Family, friends, boys, myself, job..etc. I couldn't remember the last time. Well, right now I can say I am 100% happy with life. 

Yes, there are a lot of things in my life going on I do not care for or wish for but that is life and I can't do anything about that. But, for the first time in a long time I took control of things I can make happy and put myself first and getting myself happy. Not to toot my own horn, but I'm going too. I've lost roughly 18 pounds since the beginning of April, I now enjoy running when I use to HATE it. I've become friends with some of the most amazing girls who have been nothing but supported and loving when I needed them. I have a fantastic, and I mean FANTASTIC family. 

To top all that of I have been single for the first time for longer then a month since I was sixteen. I hate to be alone, 100% hate it. I'm scared of it, and never look forward to it.

But, right now it's what I need to do, it's what I want to do and I'm ok with that.

I'm happy with that. 

For awhile I was sad and heartbroken and hated men and said they were filth and scum and I cursed the guy who I wasted four years of my life on. 

But, then I started to think about it. 

Yes, I got my heart broken. 

Yes, I didn't get the happy ever after he swore to me.

Yes, I probably won't be able to trust the words "I love you" for a very long time {Which really, really sucks.}

Yes, I could have done more.

But, I got to love for four years.

Some of it wasn't easy and some of it really sucked. Some of it was terrible and dark. But, some of it was amazing and the most passion and love I have ever felt in my life, like the kind of love you see in the movies. I got four years of that love, and some people go their whole lives without experiencing that kind of love. 

So, I got to be sad, dark, and twisy for a few months but now...

I get to be happy all just for me.

I am a smart, outgoing, funny, loving, carefree, and big hearted individual. 

I'm happy with all of that and my life.

For the first time in my life I'm simply just happy and it feels so damn good.

This is a super long post compared to most and my hands are getting pissy with me that they have had to type this much. 

Over and out, beeches.

xoxo-

kels.